Tuesday, November 18, 2014

The First Tiiiiimme, Ever I Wrote a Post...

It's the 18th day of National Blog Posting Month. Some people have already called it quits. Some people are already calling their posts desperate.

I'm in it, I'm doing it, and as for posts being desperate? Nope. What we see happening right about now is the creativity that comes from having to find words. It's one of the best exercises for a writer. To take the ordinary and make it into presentable, workable words.

Not everything has to be compelling and riveting. My measure is my pleasure. Have I enjoyed doing NaBloPoMo? The answer is yes. I have liked the idea of knowing a post awaits me, and every day so far this month, I've come through.

But let's get down to business. What am I writing about here today? And what's with the post title. I almost left it at "The First Time" but I don't want to be pulled into the pull of being a clickbait wanker. (and yes, I know what wanker means) What you are about to see today, is The First Time, Ever I Wrote a Post.

Did the earth move on that day five years ago? It might as well have. My heart pounded and my palms were sweaty.

I somehow had the intuition, that with starting a blog, my life was about to change. And it did. With the finding of community, with stretching myself beyond the limits I had set, with learning new things, and with taking a chance. Publishing that first day was monumental for me. I was worried, anxious, apprehensive. Would anyone read me? Who would it be? Was my writing going to be any good? How many posts did I have inside me?  

Here we are, five years later. While it is painful to look back and read the inexperienced voice, I can't be ashamed (I can cringe, though) I learned to walk, and now I trot. I went after something I wanted, and started a blog. Now, when I enter that zen of creativity, I'm at full gallop. 

Readers, I pull out and dust off, for all to see, My First Post:
What Can Happen, Right?

So, here we go. Day One.

What can happen, right?

Why am I so nervous??

If you do visit here, you'll pick up that I'm really freaked out by doing something wrong--always. And, I'm also afraid of a lot of things. Blogging, for instance. I finally don't want to let me being afraid of blogging, stop me.

No more. A new me..."FEAR??! You no longer have a hold on me!" See? I'm blogging...

I have begun to blog.

I have my niece as my guaranteed commenter. She promised.

Whether you know me or not, it'll be great for me to finally have a place for you to come visit.

I've visited blogs for about three years now. I never had a place to say, "Hey, come visit me now."

Now I do.

Maybe that's what makes me nervous. It was pretty easy to set this up, you guys. You know what they say about things seeming too easy. There must be a catch! So far, this is pretty pretty easy. I can't believe how easy. So, what's the catch, right? Scary easy, like any nimrod could do it. ANY.

The best reason for me to blog is that I have a feeling there are people out there, I just have this need to know. People like me, that need to read, that can't read enough. That find company in others' words. I visit so many blogs now, and count on the words of these bloggers daily. They have added happiness and joy to my days here, and they make me happy and keep me from feeling alone on so very many days.

I want to do that very same thing for people, too--make them laugh, smile, find acceptance, have a place to stop in--as they work through their day.

That sentence makes me realize how much I miss working, the gathering around the coffee pot before we all hit our desks for the day. I miss the people.

A blog is like the coffee pot at work; catching up, saying hi, and not feeling like we're on our own out here. It's really nice to have a place to talk.

I think this is going to be fun. I'm having fun already, right now. But I do feel a little bit dumb. I'm not even talking to anyone yet (can I really be that simple minded? Oh, cripes...) I love to write, always, I love to write.

In other words, What can happen, right?

Carpe Diem! (I think it'll be symbolic to end each post with a carp and say carpe diem... my kids, not so much, they say stop ... but I like it.)

*Not really liking the italics... I've seen them used on other blogs. But, maybe I'll keep it to dialogue. (yeah, right... like I'm going to be dialoguing myself now) I will work on that after I see what text choices I have. Ha, listen to me, like it'll be easy. ... that'll eat up two hours of my day (wish I were kidding... )


I am THE dork at the keyboard.

Ready. Set. [sweaty palms] and... PUBLISH.


(omg you guys, I did it)



  1. This is just perfect.

    There's so much of you in that first post! You fond your voice in just one post, Alexandra...you're amazing.

  2. Love the honesty! LIke you, I write, i read, I worry! But it all feels better being over 50 I must say. You are inspiring.

  3. It's funny. I forgot that feeling almost--of hitting publish the first time and how nerve-wracking it was and the many times I checked over my words to look for spelling errors/grammatical inconsistencies. But what I loved about reading your post today and being transported again to that time was the idea that we were just there, holding a microphone praying that people would listen but afraid that people would actually stop by. I'm so very grateful that you hit publish that day. The world is a much better place because of it :)

    And also this: "That sentence makes me realize how much I miss working, the gathering around the coffee pot before we all hit our desks for the day. I miss the people." I love how you describe blogging as a place for writers to convene and have coffee tawk. It so is :)

  4. naptime: how did I ever get lucky enough to meet you??
    RocktheWrinkle: I want to find your blog and can't!! Your url isn't attached to your profile and I want to visit you!
    Charlotte: remember that day????

  5. Best first post ever. Mine was about fisherman baby pants. Don't ask.

  6. It IS like the coffee pot at work. Such a perfect description of the hole it has filled for me. I love this and appreciate the honesty and inspiration.

  7. The first post is so nerve-wracking! I've been dabbling with blogging for a while, (just started a new blog and ready to buckle down) but I still read over every post a gazillion times!

  8. Alison: Thank you! I want to see yours!!
    Amy: it's just like that. I miss that about working.
    Kristen: IT IS. I remember that morning, every second of it.



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